Who am I?
The search for my true self led through many professional and personal permutations: From advertising executive to film rights trader to holistic practitioner, from party girl to earth mother, from 80s hedonism to a deep commitment to personal and global healing.
Born and raised in Germany, I settled in London in the early nineties and built a successful career in the film business. Despite all outward success, I kept creating great suffering in my personal life by repeating destructive relationship patterns over and over. It was my encounter with Reiki and my attunements to Reiki I and II that helped me become ready for a committed personal relationship and motherhood.
The home birth of my son, a breech baby, was a rite of passage empowering me to trust my instincts at the deepest level. Through this primal event, I not only reconnected with the Earth and Nature but also became aware of my deep longing to serve as a healer. At first, I interpreted this calling politically and immersed myself into environmental activism until I was completely burned out and on the brink of depression. Eventually, I realised that all healing starts within and we all must become the change we wish to see in the world. If I wanted to see peace and harmony in the world, my heart had to find peace and harmony first.
Motivated by the desire to find a therapy modality that would help facilitate my own transformation and growth, I conducted extensive research on complementary therapies and methods of healing. This is how I came across Barbara Brennan’s work and The School of Energy Healing.
I started the 3 year professional training course in 2007 and graduated with a Diploma in Integrated Energy Healing in June 2010. My healing journey was truly transformational and life-changing: I faced the challenge of diving into the depths of my own woundings and felt the liberation and joy that comes from revealing and lovingly accepting all aspects of myself, the shadow and the light.
The study of Reichian psychotherapy character types led me to identify my own defence mechanisms, built up from earliest childhood or even from before birth. Through the process of Core Energetics and the practice of mindful self-reflection, I learned how these defence mechanisms can be brought into awareness and gently dissolved, layer by layer, allowing the true self to emerge undefended. I experienced first hand that when we finally let go of our defences and our ego, we re-connect to our "Essence", our divine core, a place where we simply surrender to what is, in total perfection, and where we know that:
not human beings having spiritual experiences.
After graduating from the three year training, I also became a Reiki Master/Teacher to seal my life commitment to healing. Fascinated by the seemingly unlimited potential of energy therapies, I actively engage in continuous professional development and keep adding new techniques and modalities to my core skills. In 2011, I completed the EFT Practitioner Training, followed by the advanced EFT Practitioner Training a year later. In summer 2016, I completed an NLP Practitioner Training which has enriched my portfolio with further coaching skills in the area of conversational change and inspired me to use light trance states to bring forth healing and deep transformation.
I synergistically combine Mindfulness, somatic release (through movement or voice), EFT and elements of NLP into my healing sessions and the results never fail to surprise and amaze me.
The more I witness the empowering effects of this work on my clients on a daily basis, the more I am motivated to teach these skills directly, so that my students and clients can apply them in their daily lives. Whilst developing a range of classes, I trained with Dr.William Bloom from 2011 to 2014 and I am now a Spiritual Companions Mentor and Group Facilitator. During the academic year 2017-18, I served as a tutor on William Bloom's professional Level 3 Diploma in Practical Spirituality and Wellness. I am qualified to teach in the lifelong learning sector (PTLLS) and have trained to be a meditation teacher with the British School of Meditation.
In autumn 2013, I took over the co-directorship of the Foundation for Integrated Energy Healing (formerly The School of Energy Healing) with the aim of offering the same rigorous professional training and deep personal and spiritual growth that I enjoyed to future generations of students. With the opening of the Barbara Brennan School of Healing in the UK in 2017, this endeavour lost its urgency and the FIEH became a Professional Association for the Graduates of the former School of Energy Healing, maintaining high professional standards as well as membership and lobbying power within the BCMA.
Over the years I have developed a particular interest in the latest cutting edge body-focussed approaches to mental health and their applications for issues such as developmental trauma, depression, anxiety, feelings of never being good enough and much more. Therefore I am a member of NICABM's Next Level Practitioner Program, a continuous professional development framework for advanced practitioners featuring world-class experts such as Bessel van der Kolk, Peter Levine, Stephen Porgess and Pat Ogden, offering 40 professional credits per year. What I am learning here is often reaffirming earlier practical knowledge and experience by underpinning it with the latest neurological research, making it a fascinating and on-going journey for me. I also participate in 1:1 and group supervision in the various modalities I offer in order to ensure safety and professionalism.
Daily energy work and mindfulness practice continue to strengthen my connection to the wonder of Being and to the powerful energies of the Earth and the Universe. As long as we are alive, our process of growth and learning never stops. So, whilst my own process of self-inquiry and self-healing is ongoing, I offer to become your companion and guide on your journey. I hold a safe, non-judgemental and compassionate space for you to explore all aspects of your Self so you become empowered to take personal responsibility for your own path of awakening, healing and growth.